I Wish you Were my Family

Gosh! it feels like I am sticking a pin in my arm
or stapling my finger.
 Gosh, I don't know, which one is which
My heart stings into a piece of hard rock.
Gosh! I wish you were my family
Why were you born it to another family
leaving me with holes in my chest
I sit and put pennies in them so they
wont stay empty
covering my chest with foil after I am done.
The tape around it makes it stay
you know what a rainbow looks like
or a pack of red and blue M&Ms?
well I do!
Of coarse I do!
Well, what's your take on it?

The Hurting Brick

The first time,
The second time,
The third time,
The girl is full of blood,
Drowning in a tub of gulit.
Ashamed she stands there,
as she spreads the red paint
through her skin and body,
She feels like a broken strawberry
that has a heart like a clock,
ticking its way down to her spirt,
as she fills with pain of the things she
can not forget,
She is there when the brick hits again,
the first time
the second time
and the third time

New Poetry book out on amzon

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Poem #52 True Connection

Whats the true connection?
just sitting there and wait for people to come
to you
Of course they are probably going to keep spinning around
on the merry go round
Are they ever going to stop
who knows
maybe not
or just in a different world.
I am living in a different universe
A universe that is thick
and never keeps growing
I cant make it change
because it is out of my control

Poem #51 Main Part of Me

Its so crazy and dramatic its with me everywhere I go
It dares me every second
why didn't you do this?
You should of done that
Maybe you are going crazy
Oh my gosh
it squeezes me like a ball so so tight
Its hand never lets me go
Its like it wants to keep me home till I die
and all I do is wonder why and why

Poem # 50 Time will Tell

 There are no give a ways
 Miracles can depart and connect
Throw you down the wind
Chase you through a curb
Your running down the street
but your walking through the healing path
Learning everyday lesson through time
hoping for the best
Your time will come
and grow like flower

Poem#49 A Bad Person

A dark person
A strange form of miscommunication
misleading lie
full of despair and agony
surrounded by exceptions
and misbeleives
she stands in ice
crawling on the ground
freezing cold
her body surrounded by fear
her nails are black
she can barely feel them
numbness is in control