Poem #52 True Connection

Whats the true connection?
just sitting there and wait for people to come
to you
Of course they are probably going to keep spinning around
on the merry go round
Are they ever going to stop
who knows
maybe not
or just in a different world.
I am living in a different universe
A universe that is thick
and never keeps growing
I cant make it change
because it is out of my control

Poem #51 Main Part of Me

Its so crazy and dramatic its with me everywhere I go
It dares me every second
why didn't you do this?
You should of done that
Maybe you are going crazy
Oh my gosh
it squeezes me like a ball so so tight
Its hand never lets me go
Its like it wants to keep me home till I die
and all I do is wonder why and why