Always Crushing on the people I cant have

Wow.....  I get so lost in time
I mingle with my self hoping
to get your attention
but you keep on flipping the pages
cutting lemon on my head,
piece by piece while they melt on
my sculp.
I sip my tears like tea
because you are in it.
I chop my hands because they want
to be touched.
I take the bones out of my chest
so they dont crack when you dont hug me
My skin wants to wrinkle into yours to feel you
I want to breath on your forhead
My lips want to touch your eyes
so they can taste how sweet they are.
I want to taste your ash and know
that I was right... You are bueatiful.
like a golden coin

Let them Have you

They can have your face
your presence
your fever even if its a 100 degrees
they can have your voice that talks through the hill
they can see you walking
they can see you breathing
you can be their clock
that renews every season
they can have your unlimited time
I bet its sweet
having your ghost around them
you her them
you see them
you help them through
every bump in the hill
you pick them up when they fall and break their heads
and sew it back together.
tell me how does that feel huh.. tell me?
but than they go into a coma because you just leave them behind
but its ok
they will wake up with just a little part of you

Bye- Bye Student

Well I guess its here
your time has come
the stroller can push its self
The innocence is gone
Your leaving behind one part of a huge bracelet
tearing mine into pieces with your memory
holding nothing back your feathers fall
leaving them for me to gather
Shall I keep them?
Time flows like a blueberry
and when it finally bursts it
stains me with acid and breaks into a bruise
that no one can fix
Cut in half the skin breaks into little strings that can be tied together again
But I guess its your responsibility  now
While I sit here and watch the sky!

I Wish you Were my Family

Gosh! it feels like I am sticking a pin in my arm
or stapling my finger.
 Gosh, I don't know, which one is which
My heart stings into a piece of hard rock.
Gosh! I wish you were my family
Why were you born it to another family
leaving me with holes in my chest
I sit and put pennies in them so they
wont stay empty
covering my chest with foil after I am done.
The tape around it makes it stay
you know what a rainbow looks like
or a pack of red and blue M&Ms?
well I do!
Of coarse I do!
Well, what's your take on it?

The Hurting Brick

The first time,
The second time,
The third time,
The girl is full of blood,
Drowning in a tub of gulit.
Ashamed she stands there,
as she spreads the red paint
through her skin and body,
She feels like a broken strawberry
that has a heart like a clock,
ticking its way down to her spirt,
as she fills with pain of the things she
can not forget,
She is there when the brick hits again,
the first time
the second time
and the third time

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Poem #52 True Connection

Whats the true connection?
just sitting there and wait for people to come
to you
Of course they are probably going to keep spinning around
on the merry go round
Are they ever going to stop
who knows
maybe not
or just in a different world.
I am living in a different universe
A universe that is thick
and never keeps growing
I cant make it change
because it is out of my control

Poem #51 Main Part of Me

Its so crazy and dramatic its with me everywhere I go
It dares me every second
why didn't you do this?
You should of done that
Maybe you are going crazy
Oh my gosh
it squeezes me like a ball so so tight
Its hand never lets me go
Its like it wants to keep me home till I die
and all I do is wonder why and why